First divesting ourselves of worldly goods, as St Francis teaches,
in order that our souls not be distracted
by gain and loss, and in order also
that our bodies be free to move
easily at the mountain passes, we had then to discuss
whither or where we might travel, with the second question being
should we have a purpose, again which
many of us argued fiercely that such purpose
corresponded to worldly goods, meaning limitation or constriction,
whereas others said it was by this word we were consecrated
pilgrims rather than wanderers: in our minds, the word translated as
a dream, something sought, so that by concentrating we might see it
glimmering among the stones, and not
pass blindly by; each
further issue we debated equally fully, the argument going back and forth,
so that we grew, some said, less flexible and more resigned,
like soldiers in a useless war: A snow fell upon us, and wind blew,
which in time abated –where the snow had been, many flowers appeared,
and where the stars had shone, the sun rose over the tree line
so that we had shadows again; many times this happened.
Also rain, also flooding sometimes, also avalanches, in which
some of us were lost, and periodically we would seem
to have achieved an agreement, our canteens
hoisted upon our shoulders; but always that moment passed, so
(after many years) we were still at the first stage, still
preparing to begin a journey, but we were changed nevertheless;
we could see this in one another; we had changed although
we never moved, and one said, ah, behold how we have aged, travelling
from day to night only, neither forward nor sideward, and this seemed
in a stranger way miraculous. And those who believed we should have a
purpose
believed this was the purpose, and those who felt we must remain free
in order to encounter truth felt it had been revealed.
Ángel Marroquín 